3 years ago today I was having the worst summer of my life in Italy, being rushed to hospital during a panic attack and then having continuous panic attacks every day. This year I made changes that allowed me to move on from this.
4 months ago I was finishing my second year of university with a part time retail job, feeling like I wasn’t doing enough with my life.
I couldn’t travel due to my anxiety, and with the degree I was working towards I felt like my level of experience wasn’t good enough.
I don’t know what it was but one day I decided I didn’t want to feel like this anymore. I got up and told myself that if I want things to change then I needed to make those changes.
I began applying for internships and looking into possible holidays to see if I could find a good starting point.
The first major change that occurred was when I received amazing news about gettingYeah an internship. I was given the opportunity to be surrounded by lovely people and to work in an amazing environment where I could put more of my skills to use. In addition to this I was offered a part time job at the business.
After having this boost of positivity I decided to book a holiday with my boyfriend, on a plane! We chose Portugal, it was only a short flight and for 5 nights so I knew it was a realistic start.
Only a few weeks later this gave me the confidence to book another holiday with some friends to Spain, this was another short flight and only for 6 nights.
Surprisingly enough, before Portugal I was no where near as nervous as I thought I’d be. In the company of my boyfriend I was laughing for majority of the plane journey and had the most amazing holiday without the slightest bit of anxiety.
Additionally, when I went to Spain the anxiety was non existent. I was shocked by the amount of fun I was actually able to have without constant worry and fear going through my head!
The amazing feeling of achievement is indescribable. The person I used to be, who loved to travel and wanted to see the world has finally returned.
3 years ago today I was having the worst summer of my life in Italy, being rushed to hospital with panic attacks every day. Today I am in Italy with my family once again. I have been on 2 holidays by plane and have started a new job. I received a 1st in my second year of uni and I am surrounded by the most amazing friends and family I could ask for.
Don’t let anxiety take over. It can make life feel like a constant chore, but it does get better and there’s always a way out!
I feel like I’ve finally found my way out!